明早 3am 就要去飛機場了。錯！不是回古晉，而是去 Perth 參加一個很大型的教會營，青年大會。好緊張，即將跟 260＋個陌生青年人在一起度過 4 天 3 夜。可怕可怕！我一向來都很怕參加 camp，雖然年輕的時候一年大概去至少 3 次的 camp。可是那麼害臊膽小的我，很怕認識人。以前牙套的日子照成的陰影。可能以前太醜了，在 camp 裡面沒有人想認識我，很不 popular。所以我變成很妒忌我的朋友，信心降至 0，很怕人。Hmmm。。。可能要透過這次的 camp 突破自己！YOSH！！！


唉。。可是還是怕怕地。。。＝（

天韻！

天韻前一陣子來澳洲。其實這是我第二還是第三次看他們的演出。也許是澳洲的音響設備比較發達，所以他們的演唱也很明顯地比較好。

天韻是甚麼？？？

天韻就是！臺灣的一個基督教音樂團隊，英文叫 Heavenly Melody。天韻成立於 1963 年，目前的成員有 11 位男女歌手。天韻的成員一直有換人，所以 “天韻” 不是那幾個人的 band，而是一個 band。。um。。。怎麼說？哎呀你懂就好不用我多解釋。天韻小檔案

那些很經典的中文教會歌像 “野地的花”，“眼光”，“雲上太陽”，“風和愛”，就是天韻的歌啦。野地的花是天韻第一個 album 的第一首歌，第一首歌就這麼出名＋經典！很佩服這些人。。。

Click to see a list of all 天韻’s albums and songs



天韻當晚第一首演唱的歌。第一句就讓人雞皮疙瘩，因為實在太好聽了！他們的合聲實在是贊！


呵呵有沒有發現到，當晚我是坐在最好的位子。


我最喜歡的歌手，女高音 Eva，也是天韻其中一個最資深的成員。


天韻的演唱會很多 bunga 的。


這張是 Eva 拉她的超高音時拍的。這些女生實在厲害！她們不止唱自己的女高音，連女低音也包到完，可見她們的音域有多廣。哪裡像我，只能夠唱 second soprano 的音域，再高或者低就不行了。還有一個很厲害的地方就是，每次會有一個人獨唱，聲音超強的，到了某一處就是跟大家合唱，那是獨唱的聲音就不見了完全跟其他人的歌聲融在一起。哇塞要做到醬其實要很 skillfull 的耶！天韻真是被上帝祝福的一群音樂人！


Photo exposed for audiences。天韻邀請會眾一起敬拜。


同樣的照片，exposed for 天韻。


其實我一直以來也很想做一個基督徒歌手或者加入一個基督教樂團，可是歌聲和音樂方面根本不夠強。我覺得唱歌是一種享受，為主唱歌更是享受！


與天韻男低音，志剛，合照。


天韻你們很棒！

最近不知道怎麼搞的，三餐不定時，份量也不定。

最慘的是，睡覺的時候連續很多個晚上都作惡夢。就像昨晚那樣，4am睡，5 30am就醒了。而且。。。好像有一次是哭著醒的。。

很 emo 啊我

Time management

I have all the time in the world and yet so little time. Been very bad at time management lately. Even my meals are not fixed and proper. That's so not me because to me, meals are very very important. Room's a mess, piles of clothes waiting to be cleared, unwashed dishes and mug, leftovers, need to show more concern to a certain friend, this and that. Shit. So much to be done. Socialize with whom and whom. I'm starting to get sick of this... of this stupid time management skills I somehow acquired over the holidays. And I used to be organized. Screw this. SCREW.

Mely?

I wonder what do people think of me when they first meet me. What first impression do I give out to people? I've got a few feedbacks from friends who didnt know me that well before, but now do, that I look like a party animal. I look like I go to clubs. I look proud. I look like just an average girl. I look like I'm very outgoing. I look like I'm bliss. I look angry. I look like a Malay/Japanese/Honkie/Thai/Vietnamese. I look like Vanessa Hudgens (haha). I look like some celebrity whom people can never recall the name of. I look tough. I look confident. I look like a thug.

Another thing that I get a lot from people is comparison with my sister. My sister looks like the girl-next-door who's all prim and proper, a typical nice girl who can cook well, do house chores, get good grades in school and all the nice qualities a girl can possibly have. I look like the bad girl doesnt do all those 'girly' things like cooking baking doing house chores, not as intelligent as my sister, have problems with wearing dress. In fact someone from church back in my hometown told my mom that I'm a freak because I don't wear dresses.

Hmmm.

Well to clear one thing first. I don't do clubs. Although I look like the kind of person who would love to go to clubs, drink, dance and go wild, I don't. Don't tell me it's because I've never been to clubs. I have and I just don't see the fun of it. I don't like drinking booze and seeing all my friends and other strangers, all drunk and horny. I don't like to see girls dancing in clubs because the dance moves look toooo seductive. I would dance like that for my husband but not for everyone hehe. I have tried to dance in clubs before but I feel like it's a sin because it's way too seductive.


I'm not exactly a confident person as well. I've got such low self-esteem that no one can beat me to it. Although I don't look like it but I am the most insecure person in this world. Well maybe not but you get the idea of how I am. Always feeling lousy, lame, not better than anyone, not worthy bla bla... It is eating me up. Things are better now that I'm older but still... I get the insecurities a lot.

Aubrey told me one day, that I look like a thug, because I'm the girl who always wear sneakers or black boots, black jeans, black jacket and tee. I know he's just joking and even if he's not I don't blame him either. What I wear tells people how I am, though that's not always accurate. I just like to wear sneakers and boots on colder days because it's more comfortable for me to walk. I actually kinda dislike wearing heels like most girls do because IT IS UNCOMFORTABLE. Most girls would rather hurt their feet and look pretty but I choose my feet over beauty lo. Not saying all heels are uncomfortable but most of them are. For me at least. I've hurt my ankle before so it's easier for me to hurt myself again. Plus, I always have to walk 20 minutes to reach my destination. I wore heels once to university and I almost killed my legs.

Tee, jacket, jeans and lame ol' green lappy bag. THEY ARE COMFORTABLE. I don't like to bring a pretty handbag to school because it's school for goodness sake. Plus, handbags make my shoulder ache. I must say I don't exactly have a good taste in fashion and, I'm comfortable with just a tee and jeans. Don't much like wearing tight tops which can reveal my bulging tummy and fat. Other than earrings I don't really wear accessories or makeup. I do like wearing them on special occasions but definitely not on a daily basis.

And now... my hair. The pink hair tends to make people think that I'm wild and hard to approach. But I'm glad the people nowadays are more open-minded. In fact, those who are more opposed to the idea of my pink permed hair are young people. I get most of the compliments from aunties in church. A majority of people who object to my hair are males. Yes males. Ever since I was young I've realised that guys cannot accept changes in a girl. It's hard for them to adapt to those changes. In high school, everytime a girl changes a hairstyle the guys will be like "oh man that sucks" or "so ugly", but girls see it in a different way. That's just my experience la.


Oh well. I don't mind when people say I'm wild or proud or whatever because I know it's not true. That's what matters the most right?